Last week I went to a one day conference put on by a military academy, looking at peacebuilding and religion in Afghanistan and Iraq. I went in doing my darnedest to be open-minded, and there was a lot of valuable academic input. Specifically looking at the roles of neighbouring countries in supporting efforts to create peace, and in re-examining the never-ending Just War Theory. At the end of the day though, I was forced to recognize that even the people who talked about morality in terms of making war, still attributed a higher value to the lives of "our" civilians than to "their" civilians.
And the brokenness of soldiers didn't even come into the equation. The first speaker of the day, a general who had served in Iraq and Afghanistan, was to me unutterably pitiable. He articulated his own emotional injury more eloquently than I ever could, while simultaneously not seeming to be aware that he doesn't have to be that way.
I know I share these a lot, but what can I say, the man has a lot of life experience and wisdom.
"CPTnet
24 November 2007
FORT FRANCES, ON REFLECTION: Soldiers and suicide
[Note: The following reflection by CPT Director Emeritus Gene Stoltzfus was adapted from a longer essay available at http://www.gstoltzfus.blogspot.com/ ]
Each week in 2005, 120 persons who had served in the US military killed themselves according to a recent CBS news report. That is 6,256 suicides in 2005--a rate twice as high as the general population.
What is the meaning in these statistics? How do we explain this collapse of faith? How does that place within where hope lives disappear into a vacuum bereft of love, compassion, and belief in life? Is the participation in war too painful to bear? The thought of these soldier victims takes me back to the soup kitchens where I served occasionally since coming back from Viet Nam in 1967. In those lines, I met homeless soldiers who did not take their own lives, but may have contemplated doing so and, in any case, were psychologically devastated. Some watchers estimate that more than three times as many veterans from the war in Viet Nam have committed suicide as the 58,000 who lost their lives in direct combat.
Whether it takes the form of soldiers killing themselves because of internal breakdowns or militants blowing themselves up because they believe in their cause, suicide is also the abandonment of hope in civil society to provide meaning and justice. It is a reminder that a hollowness remains in the most advanced society and the most devout of religious faiths. It reminds us that a patriotism promoting warfare as its supreme test of loyalty has deep, decaying cavities.
When I returned from Viet Nam, where I had been a civilian volunteer, I was welcomed home by my community, not as a hero, but as one who had tried to speak the truth about war. When I grew tired and my efforts seemed to lack internal meaning, I went to find help for my empty heart, set adrift by the reality of war and the support for it in the larger society. I found help, including financial aid from my church's health insurance agency and from other individuals. The assistance I got forty years ago was probably more personal, more enlightened, and nuanced than Veteran's Affairs or the Department of Defence offers its soldiers today. Generations of developing a culture of peace in my church made that help possible.
I hope that I will not meet suicidal former soldiers in soup lines thirty years from now. I hope that the churches, peace groups and institutions that strive to create a culture of peace, will grow into a renaissance of creativity that embraces all the victims of war. But, I also know that the very best efforts of faith or therapy will not rebuild the inner life of some victims, laid waste by war's firebombs. I know that we have very large work before us--work that is foolishness to many liberals and conservatives alike--to create more perfect union of faith, hope and justice and put an end to war before it puts an end to life."